I think a lot of pdocs overmedicate us. I am seeing like my 5th ot 6th pdoc in 6 years. All but this one had me doped up. Thats how i felt. Like they would rather make me a zombie on the couch rather than take a chance of me being manic. That doesnt work for me which is why i have tried relentlessly to go unmedicated until my new pdoc. He spent over an hour with me. He said you are 35 and gained a lot of weight from all the different ap over the past years. He asked if i felt viibryd helped me and i didnt so he took me off of it. He put me on triliptal. Within the first week i felt a difference. He started me on a very small dose then upped it after a few days. Ive had no side effects. Im not too high or too low im just in the middle. Normalcy after 6 years. Im still waiting for the other shoe to drop. If you know what i mean. Its been over a month though and he said we have a lot of wiggle room with dosage. So i think my rollercoaster ride is over for now anyways. I do hope you find something that works for you. I can not take the heavy sedating crap long term. I think it ******** that they want to give us pills that inprison us in our own minds. I like to feel awake and alive and i like my emotions as well. Ive had meds that took all my feelings away. Made me empty, i deriously felt nothing. I couldnt be happy or sad just empty. Sorry to go on and on but i believe i function better on the least amount of medication possible. This may not be the case for everyone but it is for me. I hope you find your happy medium. Hugs!