Called into work today. My mood is still up, but last night was rough sad wise. My wife had a breakdown thinking about her past (she was not a very nice person). She has changed since those days, but she doesn't see it sometimes. She was planning on leaving while I was asleep and wasn't going to come back. So I got really sad and was crying talking to her. But it wasn't like depression cry. I was able to keep my "stable" thoughts as far as depression goes, but I was talking fast with racing thoughts and was going to stay up with her all night, but she promised me she wouldn't leave or do anything stupid. I think the depression meds are working, but I'm not sure about the manic meds. I want too get up and go do stuff, but I don't want to leave my wife alone right now. It's hard to see her like this. She's been my anchor since we've been together. I wouldn't have been able to focus at work if I'd have went in. I'm all over the place today already and its only 6am. It could be a long day. My sinuses are driving me batty. I think it's the damp air and grass pollen. Well going to go.