Today my T asked "when did you first learn that your emotions were not ok, that you had to keep quiet if you cried". This has put me into quite a spin. Some things surfaced that I can't explain yet.
I have been all over the place, all week anyway, and this....has added to it. Driving home in the dark with my boy in the car from my sisters place, I suddenly found myself thinking and feeling from a time in the past and I had tears start. I had to gather myself so my boy didn't see.
Do you find this happens also? A seemingly simple question brings a deep and scary response? The past becomes present? Ugh!
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