I know that therapy is not supposed to be about performing well in the therapist's office. I know that we are free to say whatever we are thinking, in whichever way is most natural to us, and I know that self-censorship is not conducive to good therapy. My T has been making these points, patiently and repeatedly, to me for more than two years now. Everything verbal is allowed in T's office, I know that, intellectually.

I still can't get away from the sense that I have to perform well, though. Even when I'm pissed off at T, I am constantly thinking about how I am presenting my anger, whether it is appropriate to show it and, if so, how I should show it, what he is thinking, if I seem too angry or not angry enough...

Can anybody else relate? How do I get away from this?