I'm a 16 year old boy and ever since I was a kid, everytime people asked me how I felt about things, for example "what do you think about that picture?" or "what do you think of that party yesterday?" I never really knew what to answer, I didnt have an opinion, a feeling about that. I can't remember the last time I yelled or cried of raw happiness.

A few months aggo I did something that was new to me, I hiked, along side with some friends and teachers, the highest mountain of my country. At the top there was a part that we had to climb up about 10 meters, with no protection, only our hands and feet, and only me and other 4 people (in a group of 40+) climbed that part...I felt happy, joyful, something like the feeling of accomplishment, right? No. I didnt know what I felt. The same thing happened a few weeks aggo when I did paintball with some friends and the day after we went riding karts, but this time I felt something like an emotion of happiness and adrenaline that wanted to come out and possess my body, but for some reason I couldn't get that emotion out, and when someone asked me "did you like it?" I simply answered "yes" instead of giving them an answer full of joy and excitment, like it should've been since those were both things I had never done before.

I was never diagnose of depression, but there was a time that my mom got depressed and I saw how she was doing, always tired, no mood for anything, etc, and a few months later, maybe for a reason I will not state here, I felt the same as my mother did when she was "sick". Also, I've taken some online depression tests and quizzes and most of them score "mild/moderate depression".

Nowadays, I think I'm doing better, but I still don't know how I feel about anything, I think I lost connection with my emotions and spiritual side.

What should I do? Do I have some kind of depression? I don't feel either happy or sad, some days I feel a little bit more down than other, but then I try meditation and it helps a little. I don't have at all suicidal thoughts, mainly because I WANT to life, I want to experience things and FEEL! I just can't...
As I've said, I've been trying meditation but not on a regular basis. Also, been exercising at home. Since I began exercising I stopped feeling somewhat tired and sluggish. I don't have a low self-esteem and I think I feel good about myself overall. I have a problem to socialize. It's not that I dont have friends, I do, but unless I have friends in common with someone else, I can't make small talk with that someone else, or everyone really. Also, I don't dream big, I lack motivation and I procrastinate. To finish, I believe that meditation and exercise are helping but not much.