I took a break from therapy for the last two months. It was getting difficult to pay for and I started working again. When I work I can not be popping in and out. I was not as diciplined while at therapy. That was another thing that started to weigh on my brain. Sinse therapy I had started to switch without much thought. I hit a bird with my car and crumpled. Not my usual as an adult. I don't know what to make of it. I thought I would be back to therapy in September but I don't think so. Although some of my parts are not happy with that idea so I will have to see. I haven't come to terms that this is going to get harder before it becomes freeing. I want to free my mind from the pain. But I think I will have to feel the pain and that seems insurmountable. I have tried to practice to not over think things but I get stuck when it comes to emotional pain. I fear it will consume me.