I just started on this new med, for any of you who didn't read my last post
now i am even more suicidal.

i am not sure if it's from the med introduction or school restarting or whatever
i am just...

last night i told more sleeping pills to sleep for as long as possible
is it even considered an attempt?
i wished i would never wake up, but i did

a friend said i don't really want to die, coz if i do then i wouldn't care about school or anything else. so feeling this way is not important huh?...

i feel like chasing my med plus other meds with some alcohol. what am i going to do? school is restarting on mon afternoon. i am seeing my dr on monday too, just right after two afternoon lessons. I don't even feel motivated to go to school. but it will cost big problm later if i don't go for the first (the later ones i also wouldn't want to go)