when i was young, younger than before
i never saw the truth hanging from the door
and now i'm older see it face to face
and now i'm older gotta get up clean the place.
and i was green, greener than the hill
where the flowers grew and the sun shone still
now i'm darker than the deepest sea
just hand me down, give me a place to be.

nick drake understood me that’s why he wrote those words. i want a place to be. i dont want to be here anymore in the dark. i don’t want to be at work, its not safe here, my bosses have lied to me and everyone else, soon we will all be out of work, and everything is tense and negative and i don’t want to be here. i want to go home and be safe under the covers. 2 days ago i thought maybe there was hope. that was stupid. my life sucks ***. sorry everyone i probably shouldn’t have posted at all, all i ever do is ***** but i dont have anyplace else.