I can relate to all of your losses. I too lost my a dad at age 10. He didn't die but he just left and never returned home and I never saw him again. I also spent a good part of my life grief stricken. I eventually got a little better but his absence took a toll on my emotions toward men. I was so young.

I also lost my mom to lung cancer in 1998. I was 40 and I still miss her. Even though she and I had our problems, I think about her a lot especially during holidays and on her birthday and my birthday and on the anniversary that she died.

Having a brother who disowned me, I have no family at all. I do not have children and without family, life is so much harder. I feel grief so much of the time. I am trying to find things to take the place of a family but so far nothing comes close.

I wish you the best,

SB

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