Hi all,
I participated in an OCD trial this summer about genetics. I knew my mom and two of my brothers had OCD, but in doing the trial, my mom told me that she and most of her 10 brothers and sisters were dealing with OCD. Although I am formally dx with OCD this trial took me through my whole mental health story and I feel like I have some really strong OCD traits, such as obsessive scary thoughts.

I have been married for two years, my husband wants kids, I do not. He knew this before we got married and is supportive, but it makes me feel really bad. Anyways, I am afraid that if I have kids they will all have some sort of mental health issues, as all of my 5 brothers and sister have as well as me. I struggled and struggled to get to where I am right now, feeling pretty good most of the time. I just feel like its not fair, it would be selfish of me to have a child when it seems to have spread from my moms family to my family and I don't want to pass it on any further.

I don't know, I guess I just feel bad and selfish either way... selfish that my husband wants a child and i don't or selfish for bring a child into the world that has a very good chance that they will deal with what I dealt with.

Thanks for letting me get this out.