sorry for continuously posting...I'd like to say sorry sorry sorry for every little thing I do, so scared of rejection, so sorry for not being a friend, fearing friends, hyped up on caffeine at present and I wonder how crazed I sounded over the phone with therapist.

Just letting off steam. I can't seem to get myself to clean the house. Why did I tell him I was doing so much better, my head was calm, only to get off the phone and realize how completely not calm I was. I WILL be OK. Yes, I really will. One baby step at a time. Change out of pajamas, number one - it's 3:30 in the afternoon! I am not letting my husband come home to this. Man, am I hyper!