ok so i met with my team. i told them i did not trust them. they seemed offended by that. other T said i looked miserable. i told them i did not drink. after that we went to see pdoc. pdoc said they shouldnt be too worried about the test. it turns out that i was only positive for ethyl sulfate. not the other 2 tests for alcohol. i told them i had been drinking a lot of grape and apple juice prior to the test. i dont know if that makes a difference. my nurse asked me if i had been eating anything really high in sugar and that was all i could think of. they said i was paranoid and needed to get my shot. pdoc said ok and i got my shot.

then i went to see my regular T. we were going to meet downtown but there is a festival going on. so we met at his office and walked around a graveyard. it was really hot outside. T was making jokes and being funny and that helped my mood. we sat down in a shaded area and talked about books tv shows and movies. he said that since i got my shot i will start to feel better. i told him i dont think it will change things. but he seemed sure that it would. so i dont know. he told me to write down the things i am experiencing so i can look at it next week and determine if they were real or not.

after i met with my reg T i went to take another drug test. im worried this one will say the same thing. my nurse said she thinks everyone believes me they just want to find out why it is giving a false positive. my nurse also said that pdoc told her he wants to put me on fetzima and take me off vybriid. but that wont happen til i am feeling better.

so a lot happened today. i havent even ate anything yet. but i am going to. i need to work on homework too. i am feeling a little better after seeing my T