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Old Aug 29, 2014, 05:15 PM
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Originally Posted by ShiningOne View Post
For example, I used to write and draw, but stopped because they required too much energy and focus. Also, I would always be my own biggest critic and tell myself to give up because I was unsatisfied with what I did.
This stood out to me and is something that I've struggled with... now I'm only saying from my perspective so if you don't relate please let me know

For me this was a self esteem issue... I like to write, but in doing so I guess I wanted to share... to have it validated by others rather than just enjoying the activity for me... as such the inner critic would lambast my work and I would give up before I really got started... or god forbid I actually showed someone what I'd written and no matter what they said, I'd be looking for hidden meaning and imagine negativity. If they were to be actually critical then I'd be crushed.

At a stage right now I guess where I'm coming from a point where I couldn't really plummet much further and while in hospital I attended creative writing sessions.... I loved it. Wasn't bothered about what other people thought... it was just a back to basics and doing something because I actually enjoyed it.

Same with pottery... can't pot for peanuts but the activity of just bashing some clay about and moulding it into something simple was really quite pleasant.

Sorry for rabbiting on... I just feel from my own perspective that 'not finding time' was untrue 'for me'... it was an excuse... I found time to watch telly/a movie, or post on forums like this... so ummm, yeah

With that said, I am going to pre-empt a response that you are in fact overwhelmed with jobs to do at home as well as work... so, I'm not laying judgement (and please refer to my first section on 'relating'), just giving me some food for thought on how I've experienced things.
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Thanks for this!
ShiningOne