I'm not judging you. I just had a crying spell. Sometimes I do get triggered on here. I wish I had a therapist I could count on. My family wants to see me and I feel way too unstable. Man, I cried hard. My family just doesn't understand. Like u guys understand the mental illness part. But I really think I had that psychotic break bc I just couldn't take it anymore. I've been through so much trauma. Even before I was forced into that organization. I just wish I could be normal and hold a job, feel safe in the world, feel loved. I've got to learn to love myself I think is what it all comes down to. Oh life can be so hard sometimes.