I didn't think metaphorical was a terrible concept at all. I think it's a poor substitute for a real hug, but quite a decent attempt at an alternative. To me it represents the therapist caring, but not wanting to cross a boundary, like.. holding you in spirit, holding you in his thoughts. I don't think "metaphorical" pertained to what you disclosed at all, just to the type of hug he felt he could offer.

Also, when I referred to termination: no I wouldn't recommend you terminate because your therapist said no to something, if it was me, I'd terminate just because a lack of physical touch is a deal breaker. I find it healing and important. But if you don't want hugs in therapy in general, once your feelings fade, as you're deeply shaken by talking about the trauma, I think you'll see a way through to understanding he cares about you and talking to him about why he doesn't hug and how you can feel best supported given his boundaries.

I'm sorry it hurts so.