I can talk about the abu*e I have suffered throughout my life. I can talk about my anxiety, my depression, my PTSD, and I can even talk some about my SI (can talk a lot about it online). I have a hard time talking about my issues with eating.
About 10 years ago, I was diagnosed with anorexia. I can tell you that it started many years before that. Very recently, I've learned that there is a difference between anorexia and AN. Apparently anorexia is the lack of appetite. Anyways, that doesn't really matter, I'm avoiding talking. Sorry.
I haven't been eating much in the last two weeks again. I went from noon yesterday to now, 6:30pm, and all I've eaten is two eggs. I'm not hungry. I have lost nearly 5 pounds this week alone (don't worry I'm obese so I can stand to lose the weight). I'm so happy to see the pounds dropping off, but then today I recognized that I haven't been eating much again. I'm obsessed with weighing myself every day, sometimes multiple times a day. When I exercise, I push myself past my limit, to a point I nearly collapse. I can't have my foods touching. I can't eat around people.
I start with a new T this coming week. She specializes in EDs, and part of me wonders if that is partially why my old T transfered me to her. I know there are other reasons too. I'm terrified. I don't know that I want to work on it with her, yet at the same time, I do. I was to lose weight and I want to do it in a healthy way.
Anyways, not sure what I'm looking for with this post.

Celtic