Self-explanatory. My mom is drunk and arguing with one of the neighbors. I asked my sister for help with a problem on Facebook and she logged off without giving me an answer or even saying "bye" to me. I used to feel like no one could see my suffering, now I think everyone sees it but they just don't give a ****. I don't have anyone on my side, no support system. Nobody cares. I think if I were to die tonight only my immediate family would grieve at all, and then they'd only cry for maybe a week and then get over it. I have no friends. No romantic love. I'm ugly and I can't do anything right. I'm not even good at anything, I have no talents and no future for a successful career. I'm 17 and basically alone in life. I mean, I'm not alone because I'm not the only one who feels this way, but I'm alone in the sense that I have no one. Now I don't know what to do with myself. I'm getting hopeless again because I realize I'll never have the kind of life I've been wishing for, I'll never be "normal". I will always have these little black moods and spells of melancholy. And you know what, I don't think I can live with this same old **** anymore. I am so done.