One minute I LOVE myself, think I'm sexy and can do anything. Then one thing goes wrong or I mess something up and then all of a sudden I can't STAND myself. tell myself I'm worthless, I ruin everything. I look at myself in the mirror and I'm disgusted. Think I should die.

I hate this. I'm trapped in my own mind and it is toxic to other people. I can't hold down a relationship for the life of me. I need help. Please someone tell me if you ever get this way because of the BPD, and how you get through it?