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Old Aug 29, 2014, 07:58 PM
Anonymous100305
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Originally Posted by ShyPoetGirl View Post
Self-explanatory. My mom is drunk and arguing with one of the neighbors. I asked my sister for help with a problem on Facebook and she logged off without giving me an answer or even saying "bye" to me. I used to feel like no one could see my suffering, now I think everyone sees it but they just don't give a ****. I don't have anyone on my side, no support system. Nobody cares. I think if I were to die tonight only my immediate family would grieve at all, and then they'd only cry for maybe a week and then get over it. I have no friends. No romantic love. I'm ugly and I can't do anything right. I'm not even good at anything, I have no talents and no future for a successful career. I'm 17 and basically alone in life. I mean, I'm not alone because I'm not the only one who feels this way, but I'm alone in the sense that I have no one. Now I don't know what to do with myself. I'm getting hopeless again because I realize I'll never have the kind of life I've been wishing for, I'll never be "normal". I will always have these little black moods and spells of melancholy. And you know what, I don't think I can live with this same old **** anymore. I am so done.
Well, ShyPoetGirl, I'm 66. So, from my perspective, at 17 it would be tragic for you to give up so early in life. But, yes, I do have some idea of how hopeless it must seem to feel totally alone. As far as the black moods & spells go, they may or may not always be there. But, some of the greatest, most creative people in history had them, as well as many, many ordinary people who managed to have successful lives in spite of struggling with depression. So, although it all seems so insurmountable now, I'd like to suggest that there is much to be hopeful about. I send you warm thoughts in hopes you can find your way through your present darkness...
Thanks for this!
AngstyLady