I appreciate everyone that posted. I'm better now...have come back and posted on some threads. It does help to try to help others or try to support.

Those who posted support here or offered hugs (particularly those who are uncomfortable offering hugs ever--you know who you are) Thank you.... I'm still wounded but I'm trying. It just gets so damn overwhelming sometimes .... Thank you all for understanding, and affirming why I need this site.

When my T is unavailable....you are. It means a lot.