Hi,

I try to keep this post short and get to the point fast. I never went to a shrink and I dont think I ever do. I never posted this kind of messages as well and this is my first time doing this. I am a 27 years old man with 190cm height and a six pack ab. I am a phd student in Melbourne university and recently came to the Melbourne from one of the third world countries. I have the most beautiful girl as a girlfriend good friends good family good job and I still don't feel good about anything. As long as I remember I always thought people are making fun of me. Even people who are passing by me in the street I think they are laughing at me. It seems like they always smile and then suddenly put their heads down or look another way to avoid eye contacts with me. I wasn't always like this 3 or 4 years ago I was near 110 kg (right now Im 82) and with a bad hair bad job and without any girlfriend what so ever. I decided to work to care about my looks and work out. I thought if I solve these problem my real problem would be solved. However, right now, Im here and I achieved everything that I thought could help but I still feel the same that I was feeling 4 years ago. I get sad for no reason, I pick a fight without any reason to my girl friend who by the way must loves me so much because frankly I don't know how she bear me. Moreover, She and all the friends and family around me think that I am a very confidence and powerful man but I know that Im not. I don't even have enough confidence to look people in the eyes( men or women) and the fact that they don't get me and always saying-- you're this good you're that good -- is so annoying.

Anyway, I don't know if anyone understands the experience that Im having but if anyone does please help me because seriously I don't know what the *** is wrong with me.