First off..... lovelyst, welcome to PC!

I know losing someone really close to you is really hard. I have a boyfriend of 7 months and we've been friends forever and sometimes I ask myself what I'd do if he passes away. I always cry my eyes out thinking of it. But I'm sorry you had to experience such a thing like that, it's nothing I have experienced but I bet it's very hard to deal with.

Just remember...."pictures may fade, but memories last forever."

Hope all goes well for you, PM me if you need anything.

Love,
Jessica