Lady lindsey I know how scary and strange it is to have voices of all kinds to not be there any more, and how scary change is once its happened. I also know right now it probably doesnt feel like this change is positive and good like treatment providers say.

I have had and still have many different kinds of voices. my diagnosis's are many and with them came/come the symptom of voices, imaginary friends, ego states, alternate personalities, inner child theory type voices/beings/feelings/ psychosis induced hallucinatory type alters/ delusional .....gosh there are just so many different types of having voices and others inside a person.

Depending upon where they stemmed from and what type of voices/alters/ beings these are/were inside me various treatments made them integrate (DID type alters) or go away (all others except the inner child theory type, the inner child theory type doesnt go away nor integrate because this kind of insiders are more feeling like you did when you were a child situations that every one normally goes through. kind of like being very excited or scared about something happening today that makes you think of or feel like your first day of kindergarten type of situation)

my point is change is very scary for some people no matter where their voices and internal insiders come from...stress, anxiety, psychosis, dissociation, what ever. a person gets used to being one way and then suddenly that way of life is yanked out from under them somehow.

How I coped with going through these changes varied depending upon which of my problems were creating these "insiders" voices ...

example when the alter rainy integrated I missed hearing the crying in my head, it was my normal and I was used to it. but then I realized she wasnt gone. she was just joined with me. now instead of my switching into rainy and rainy crying when I was sad, I could now do that on my own. one day I found myself wiping away tears and it felt good to hold Rainys stuffed dog, have my wife hold me, knowing I was being held, all the characteristics that was rainy was now me.

thats what the dissociative type voices, feelings, alters do they dont go away. they just change into being together as one. you gain gain what was them. my therapist told me one day to take action when I miss those voices/alters...sit down and think about what caused me to think and miss these voices/alters at this present moment and what I need to do now...

example one day I was at work and I suddenly missed one of my voices, when I did what my therapist told me to do I realized I had been looking at my desk and thinking about a particularly stressful situation where before integration I would have been triggered into dissociating and this particular voice/alter would be active. So I calmly reminded myself that this voice was a dissociative type so its not gone, everything that was this voice is now part of me. what does that voice have to say right now if it was not merged with me.... then it came to me that voice would have said if you clean your desk you will be able to find what you are looking for and with that other case well they can just sit and wait for me to get to them. one step at a time. I smiled and said a silent thanks for being one with me now, you are making my job easier today.

after that any time I missed or thought of my dissociative type voices or alters thats all I had to do. sit quietly, figure out what triggered me into wanting/missing that voice and then take action.