Lately at work I keep having the feeling that people hate me and don't care if I am there etc. Logically I know this is not true. Last night at work some of them were talking about how they went out the night before and I just felt so excluded which immediately went to thoughts of I am not liked, I worthless, etc.

This is a feeling I haven't had in so long. Even with my close friends I sometimes think it bc I am lousy at keeping up communications. I really enjoy encounters talking with strangers or acquaitances bc there is no emotional aspect. I want close relationships bc I feel so lonely sometimes, yet it seem like it will never happen.

I just started therapy and I told her this is one of my goals. I have been married for 17 years and on the outside it wouldn't look like I have these issues, but I just feel like I am incapable of having close friends. Is this where the borderline comes in?