Not good at all, trying to remain upbeat and positive but it's all bull**** really, just something on the surface to keep everyone else happy. I got offered this job but I don't want it, I can't do it. I just don't fit in here, never have. I can't do society. I'm making peace with the fact it's time to go. I'm really scared but I can't stay, I can't do this anymore. Going to ring my doctor on Monday to exhaust all avenues of getting help but I'm done, at least then I can say I tried. Ah f*** it anyway.