hi mumamoose
that is exactly the thing about bipolar...it never feels wrong when you are in that manic phase...everything feels so good....until you come down and then you are embarrassed and ashamed and regretful. I wanted my boyfriend to understand too...I never did things like that, my emotions were just out of control, but he didn't believe in mental illness..pull yourself up by your bootstraps kind of guy he was...thought I was weak for taking meds...give it some time....maybe he will talk to you later and you can explain then..write him a letter explaining...give him some literature..find a good website...if he cares, he will look into it..if he doesn't, he isn't worth it anyway. Welcome to Psych Central. You will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. You will get a lot of support here. Again, welcome.