hello everyone, Thank you so much for your replies to my post..its been 5 days since I have seen or talked to him,It is extremely hard for me not to pick up the phone and call him BUT,I'm keeping myself busy and spending lots of time with my son ..the girls are older and doing thier own things but I see them when they are home..I just dont understand why he didnt send me back home to california if he felt the way he does? I'm having a hard time believing there is such a thing as TRUE LOVE..I have accomplished so many things on my own even though I have the anxiety disorder and I WONT GIVE UP NOW! If I do find my TRUE LOVE I promise to let you all know ,,,take care and thank you so much for being here for me ,,You have helped me alot ,,,bye 4 now ,,,Bee