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Originally Posted by HazelGirl
No, I don't have any close friends. I have a lot of trouble opening up to people and letting them in. My T is the only person who knows me really well. Others know parts of me or pieces that I think they would be okay with seeing, but no one else knows me really well. I don't really know how to make close friends, or allow myself to open up and show them my needs. I end up coming across as aloof and distant because of it, and no one wants to be around that.
I don't feel like the people in my life value that part of me. Maybe it's just my opinion of myself dictating that, but I don't feel like people really like me in my real life. I feel like they are repelled by me for some reason I don't understand.
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I can relate to this so completely. I have one friend who I feel I can discuss this with. I told her that I find social situations difficult and I don't make a good impression when I meet people. She told me when she first met me I came across as aloof, which was an eye-opener for me as I hadn't really considered it, but now I see that is what people think before they get to know me (few people get that far)
Hugs for you Hazelgirl. You're not a freak, you are just learning to value yourself.
