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Old Aug 30, 2014, 06:59 PM
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Originally Posted by lilodian4ever View Post
Even if I DO get better, will the betterment be so mind-blowing that it will sufficiently diminish my decades of suffering ? Likely not. My chances just don't add up to bliss.

Thoughts ?

I try not to think that way, but I admit it is definitely on the brain. One more year of this, and another, and another, and the ending is the same.

My father, who is borderline, told me that no one has the right to make you live if you do not want to. I get that, but I think that there are a lot of people who do want to live, and commit suicide in a dark moment.

Suicide is always on my mind as well, if I could erase that part of me I would though. I feel like I fight it, it is an unwelcome thought, and this is from someone who has acknowledged they want to live.
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