I'm racing in my head again. Have nephews and their parents over. Can't make them stop. This is defiantly one of the days I say meds aren't working. I'm wired. I want to go walk and read and run and.... everything. Today's Bible study had done the opposite of what I expected. I'm more driven to my Wicca and am ready to go and learn and do. I want to go do ceremonies skyclad. Dance around outside in the streets and experience the rush of sensory overload. But I've gotta stay mellow. No one can know this is what's going on inn my head. I can't even talk to my wife about it because of all the people. Well it's only 2 extra adults and 2 kids. I'm ready to go go go. I'm buzzing. I can feel this energy growing and raising and swelling. I feel like I'm going to explode if I can't go do stuff. The seroquel doesn't seem to be working well. Maybe Tuesday Pdoc will change stuff. I hope. I need relief. A constant relief not the partial relief I experience now. I feel like I keep saying the same stuff. Why can't I just snap my fingers and find what is the right combo of meds. I just want level consistent level. What to do?