I struggled with that for years, skycastle. I thought that because I allowed my uncle to sexually assault me when I was 7-9 years old and because I started liking it that I was the guilty one, I thought I should be ashamed of myself. My uncle took advantage of me and it didn't make it okay because I sometimes enjoyed it. I am still having a tough time now as an adult because I don't know what feelings I am "supposed" to have about what happened.