I'm wondering if anybody else deals with this - Why is it that when a person has a diagnosis of major depressive disorder most people act like it's not a big deal when compared to bipolar disorders? I was treated for depression and anxiety for 15 years until I became manic/psychotic. After receiving my new diagnosis I remember thinking, Now my crazy is legit. It really isn't my fault that I'm here locked up. My psychiatrist that I met after I arrived all psychotic in the ER didn't meet me until after the massive Haldol shot so I was pretty sedated at that point. She's gone back and forth on my diagnosis since she kind of has to take my word on what those previous 2 weeks of crazy were like (although I had to ask my family since I didn't remember a lot of it). She thought it was schizoaffective disorder, but now wonders if it is depression with psychosis. Honestly, that would make more sense, but I seriously felt like, Great. No one will take me seriously when they find out I'm on disability and have been documented as "total and permanently disabled". Now I'll be thought of as lazy, weak, etc.