Hi trying2bme.
Just a thought: are you on (or off) any medication that may be causing you to be instable?
Another thought: Think of your therapist as your hired help. You pay him to care and you pay him to be there on that hotline for you.
It sounds like you got some great friends out there and a husband who loves you. You would hurt them most by not letting them help you. So worry a little less about hurting them and a little more about getting through the hard times.
Love always,
Ivonne