Hi Life, I'm thinking maybe (apart from.........) BDD because of how negatively you compare yourself to so many other guys?? I just get the feeling from chatting that if you were to see someone else with exactly the same physic as you, you'd be thinking they looked a lot better than you.........you wouldn't be judging them anywhere near as negatively as you are yourself, you wouldn't necessarily be seeing parts of them as "imperfections", or things that mattered so much???
But the "apart from............" I'm thinking that's a really big thing here. You do want something specific and you're right there are real noticable differences but maybe it's as much an issue of self-esteem underneath all of that/underneath wanting that/underneath all that focus on..........
And I know we've talked about that but maybe some more work with your T on that too???
Anyway, sending you hugs, and here for you.



Alison