Okay, I feel like a mess. I keep shutting myself down. Sorry. Can't even help myself. Don't know what I want to ask for. And I keep forgetting what I want to say/type. This is stream-of-consciousness because I have to try and get something out. I feel sort of emotionally constipated. Sorry, horrible imagery. Maybe I'd be more coherent if I were drunk? lol. I'm more upset about this stupid thing than I have a right to be, that's for sure. Sorry for rambling.
Erm, sorry, feels like attention seeking. But I want to be seen dammit. Sorry. I'm being silly. Don't mind me. I'm just tired.