I am so proud of you! I agree, it will really be difficult but please, just take one day at a time. I lost my first love being together for 7 years because her relatives fixed her marriage and thought that I would never love that way again but after 28 years, I felt in love again. For about 5 years with her, I don't remember we ever argued. We enjoyed our company so well. We laughed a lot, we enjoyed telling each other past funny experiences and we share the same likes and dislikes. She passed away last October, 10 months after she was diagnosed with cancer. It was tough for me to get over again, I developed several illnesses (not mentally tho) because my immune system went down so quick due to lack of sleep and eating appetite. Until now, I am under the care of doctors but I am better now. I spend my time gardening, playing games on line and chatting with close friends. They are worthy, I find relief and satisfaction, they make my day and they inspire me.

May you find the best person you deserve. Wish you the best and may God bless and keep you.