My poor mom. Shes the sweetest person in the whole world.. she tries to get me so much. And I just blind side her with rambles and emotional jumbled messes of coversations and she tries ti cone up with solutions. But when im this down and emotional I dont know up from down and I tell her this. I feel bad for her because I know as my mom she just wants to make this all better for me so shes scraping and grasping for something. But its just an outlet for me but I think its bad for me to use her as one. It seems to stress her out so much more. And i dont want to be a burden or cause her pain. She already has enough on her plate as is. It seems as though it sort of just kinda comes flowing out though. Idk. She doesnt deserve it. Wish I could just buck up and be better... heh... the dream huh... wish I ciuld atleast give her something like a vacation or something from all this hot mess.. lol.. gawd knows shes earned it ten times over