I don't think it's pathetic that you miss your t this early in the break. In fact I think that's pretty usual. It will progressively get better in my experience. My t left for two weeks and the day after my appointment I missed her so much, and was so drawn down by the idea of not seeing her for so long that I had a full fledged panic attack. However, the next day it was a little bit easier, and continued to be that way until I was almost convinced at the end the two weeks that I really didn't need a therapist anymore... until I saw her lol