my bpd flares up but i had the longest relationship as of it this year, which i'm proud of (6 months).

as you know though i argued with him and dumped him, for a good reason. i know he is not right for me, but i feel guilty and have the urge to ask for forgiveness from him and beg for him back.

this is classic bpd.

i feel though that if i want to get better i shouldn't contact him. it's practically silly - he is not future husband material and not that great of a guy anyways. but i still have this urge to contact him, it's a weird seductive control thing i have.

anyone else feel the same?

what's the more healthy thing to do? accept that it's over.