Hi Ecclesiastes and welcome to PC

I'm not a doc, but it sounds like it could possibly be PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. My daughter suffers from PTSD and sometimes she has similar situations as you. I could be way off base here too, but it's a thought.

The best way to get it figured out would be to speak to a therapist/pyschologist for a diagnosis. Many times, therapy along with medication will help you get through the trauma. There are a lot of good folks here who may have a better take on your situation than I do.

I wish you well in your quest for answers and healing.

Take good care!
J