Hi.

I did catch ur drift.
Allways pleased to help

For me, this thought "if i am great,why do I have this disorder" isint so clear. I do understand your struggle around it. And "get" you and your pain. Narcissits lives are full of pain actually. Undying need or "must" or else all comes crubmling down. Its hearbreaking to understand the fact that mirrow is your best friend and also ur worst enemy. Mirrow of ones self I mean. It aint easy to take steps at looking at yourself, admitting and understanding. Its a tough ride and i wish you well on your journey.