I will start this off by saying I have not been diagnosed with anything. Nothing at all. I can't because I have never been to someone that could diagnose me with anything and I know I will never truly find out anything until I seek someone out but my mom doesn't like paying for things that she doesn't think is needed.

I'm easily distracted
Easily annoyed
Defensive
Easily upset
Fear of abandonment
Ect.

About once a day I cry and/or really frustrated and angry. My emotions are like a roller coaster. One min I'm happy the next I'm mad the next I'm in my room crying my eyes out and when it's all said and done I have no clue what really happened. I'm quick to come to my defense I constantly feel the need to defend myself. Anytime someone cancels on me I take it personally like they where never really my friend and they don't care about me and its even worse when that happens and I have this almost obsessive need to be their best friend and they are like a god to me or something, I don't know how to explain it without sounding crazy. Finally, I can't keep my focus I feel the need to move around play with my hair pick at my eyebrows and pick at my nails. I've probably been trying to write this for an hour now. There's more but if I continue I'll be writing this all night.
I feel crazy.
I want some opinions.
My friend (who suffers from bipolar) thinks I could be bipolar or have borderline.