So I had a therapy session this afternoon and the psychologist mentioned getting a treatment team. That freaked me out. A LOT.

But then I realized...how can I let this go if I don't have help addressing all levels of this problem? I seriously sat down for an hour tonight, trying to imagine how I can find some other way to handle my life and find self-acceptance, and I realized that I don't know how...and I can't see myself living any other way.

A perpetual cycle of elation from weight loss, temporary normalcy, weight gain, and return to the restriction only to wind back up in the same place.

Those of you who are in recovery or have recovered, how did you let go?
Is it possible to let go without hating yourself?
I realized I just...don't know where to go next.