First off, I think it might be a good idea to disregard your insurance company's 'thinking' process....it's your negative self-talk, isn't it? I mean, did someone from the insurance company actually tell you that you are not behaving and therefore your privileges are being removed? What privileges are you talking about anyway?

Second, as I was attentively reading your post I had this question in my mind, and I'll ask it here: why do you want to return to therapy? what are you looking for in a therapeutic relationship? (funny how I'm asking myself the same questions...oooo...that'll help me get unstuck with my current t....)