I am very sorry but i do not know where to post this in this forum and i really wanted someone to read my story or even to talk with me about this...

I am a male 23 years old...I have lied to people everyone in my life ALL OF MY LIFE since i can talk...Of course i have spoken the truth sometimes but most of what i say is a lie....I lie to my best friend i lie to the once i loved or even my Mother....I feel so good when someone believes my lies and feel very powerfull and kind of evil...But i like feeling evil that way...I like to controle people in a certain way so everything goes according to my plan and everyone dances in the palm of my hands...Now since today i am starting to feel kind of guilty about it but i still laugh at it also....I need to stop this...I want to stop it and leave everyone i have ever known behind...I also have a heavy iritating compulsive disorder and a addiction to alcohol since i was 13...I get addicted to substances very easily....

Thanks in advance for reading my story =)