I'm reading your post, all attentive, preparing to type my two cents....then I feel the bar of soap slipping out of my hand...y'know, you wanting to experience your emotions at the time of your exit, yet it slipped away as you went to spend time with your friend. So yeah, I can understand the numbness. Kind of like you need to get back into the therapy room to be able to recapture the experience, and then sit with it....