All right.. well I guess I'll tell my story and just go from there... I was diagnosed bipolar about 2 1/2 years ago.. 32 now. I've been bipolar in my mind since about 17 and major depressive before then. Anyway...

I've always been extremely introverted... don't know if that means anything?

I have what I've always just called "blackouts".. basically I will become irritable to the point of blowing up or shutting down, at these times I will sometimes go 3 to 4 days where my life is altered.. after 3 or 4 days are gone.. I come around to my "normal" self.. at this point I'm not even sure why I lost it most times.. and basically cannot remember what people said or i said.. forget which day was what and often not sure if one, two or three weeks have passed(when i say that i don't mean clueless but i have to play days back in my head and try to figure it out)... me and my wife talked the other night for a long time.... she didn't understand the extent of my blackouts... i didn't realize just how "scary" i can be.... we went over alot of the past and i didn't realize the extent i took things or completely forgot some things all together.. (texting one of my therapists on a wild rant etc...)... i'not sure where this fits in.. i know i can't be diagnosed here but im just curious what people think/? is this extreme? I really don't know.. i've been in IOP (intensive outpatient program) for going on 2 weeks now... I plan to discuss this more there (not dissociation but the extent of my blackouts and possibly have my wife come in and talk to my therapist)... anyway..