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Originally Posted by HazelGirl
And maybe that's what makes it so hard for me to be in relationships with people. If they're not hurting me or criticizing me, if they're just treating me normally, I don't feel like they care. They're only "tolerating" me.
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Yeah, exactly. As I told T a while back I feel like people are just being polite when they're nice to me and when they're hurting or criticizing me they're being honest. I have no close friends and I'm married to a damaged and emotionally abusive man. It's like there's no way out of it, just a miserable choice between loneliness or pain. I'm not sure which is worse really.
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At poor peace I sing
To you strangers (though song
Is a burning and crested act,
The fire of birds in
The world's turning wood,
For my sawn, splay sounds,)
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Dylan Thomas, Author's Prologue
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