(((((((((((((Christina))))))))))))))
Ooooh, honey, I totally get the physical pain part. When I first had to leave my BF, before either of us had admitted anything, it hurt SOOO badly... I didn't know what to do with myself! So I completely relate to that.

This is one of those mysterious guy things... and I think, though my experience is limited, what he's been saying/doing could mean a couple of things:

1)He's being totally honest, just sees you as a friend, and is really grateful to finally have somebody who he's compatible with; thus, he wants you with him a lot, but doesn't love you as a girlfriend (his love is more brotherly).

2)He's starting to have feelings for you, but he's a GUY, remember, so he's not very good at dealing with them. The "love you, but not IN love with you" comment could be his way of hedging his bets and protecting himself from getting hurt, as he may have been in the past (he's probably also feeling a lot of pressure from your friends/his family, which will just make the situation worse). If this is the case, his asking you to go overseas with him might be his way of trying to get you alone and sort things out without interference.

3)He's got no clue what's going on, isn't sure if he loves you or likes you, and is just being a typical guy and acting on impulse. Sometimes this can get very messy, so watch out if this is the case.

Either way, I truly hope things work out in your favor!!! I know how frustrating and painful it can be to like a guy who seems unattainable, but my advice is to not give up hope while realizing that this could take quite a long amount of time to sort out. Often, relationships are best when given a while to grow and mature before diving into something more intimate (as you probably know).


luck&love
~muse