Thank you to all of you for your posts. It REALLY means a lot. I look forward to reading your replies. You all mean so much to me.

I tried to work things out with that colleague who betrayed me so badly last week and she wouldn't hear a word, feeling or thought I wanted to express to her. I finally just told her what loss our friendship was. She said something snotty about ruining her day and off she went. Later on, a mutual friend with her in tow, came to sit by me in a meeting. She gave me the same snarly face, forcing herself to say hello to me. I did the most immature thing I could possibly do and that was get up and leave. I got halfway across the parking lot and forced myself to go back because I HAD to be at that meeting. But, I didn't sit by her.

One minute I think I can move on and then I see her, and all these ugly feelings of betrayal just choke me. I just don't know what I will do to resolve this.

I came home and took a 3 hour nap. You're right Pat, maybe tomorrow will be better.
Thanks again everyone!
Okie